AHS rawks

2007-03-13T03:59:00.000-07:00

Haiz...so today was like quite a stressful and slack day...SO mornin went HQ happily then come home sad sad cause i got transfered from AC to AA...to say nicely is transfer...to say Badly is kana expelled to say even worse is got banishedT.T oh wells...shldnt feel so sad actually cause now its kinda of a free man cause AA dun have lotta trainings but AC got a lot so maybe can consider myself lucki or wadeva. It wasn't my fault i suppose...or was it?

So Yiyang sir transfered mi from AA to AC. Then suddenly like all the black face all turned at mi and words "traitor" and "traitior" was like hurling at mi everywhere i went. Makes a person feel kinda frustrated and pissed off somehow after hearing it for long. Then i crossed road after waiting for the traffic light while my squad went across. So they jaywalked...wadeva...then i didnt...so my squad's like so DEAD cause they jaywalked in front of NCOS. so sianz can?

Well...so maybe i really am sorry to AC though...but i can't refuse Sir's words mah...and he said he largest in the enitre division(currently) also...So dun care bout AC lor? Sometimes must make sacrifices...so they carn blame on Sir come find miT.T oh wadeva. sometimes life's likedat...so i wun be AC casulty anymore either cause they wouldn't ask a traitor to go training. So let Phillip and Jun Sheng take over my place lorhs. Feels bit sad tinking bout it too actually...thinking of the times when i was casulty for AC when in early January was with AC during trainings...it seems quite unforgettable somehow...

So last Sunday was Anna's B'dae... So went to PP shop for her B'dae present...didnt noe why i took that effort go search anyways...so i went 77 street look look see see...then saw one(think it was a necklace)item that seems quite nice and was within my budget...so bought it lorhs...butthen the girl at the counter suddenly asked mi if i wanted a box and the box caused 1.90...so i heard liao was actually quite pissed cause its like within my budget then outta my budget suddenly...oh wellls...but juz buying for her as a friend's view lor...no other meaning actually...sometimes i think got holes in my head likedat...Maybe is my hallucinations but ppl seem to give mi dark faces everywhere i went...oh wellls...com is cmin...lets hope AC and AA good luk...

2007-03-09T04:12:00.000-08:00

sigh...so its ai jia's last day of teaching as a releif cher in AHS...oh wellll....tot i saw few ppl cry...sigh...in chinese there's an old saying called nothing never end.so its the same too...maybe we shldnt be too sad bout ai jia leaving also...maybe we shld wish her all e best instead...oh welll....haha she told mi go tell my bro that she bulli mi...xP...wadeva...signing off!

2007-03-01T05:19:00.000-08:00

LOL...so i went iten today to play table soccer with hui wen...and jun hao and isabel...and sam...lol...its like...actually hui wen very pro at table soccer de lorhs...i supposed i played pool also before i kaypo go play table soccer...hahas...wa...play pool is like...ownage?
So i temaed up with kang ning...we got owned by jun hao lor...can't belive sia...i hit the ball the ball move less than 1cm..=.= then kang ning was like telling mi hit sideways...LOL! oh welll....tmr got spa test...go sch wash...-.= lame...oh wells...signing off!

2007-02-06T03:50:00.000-08:00

Oh man...the home work and test season realli start liao...its like i soooooooo busi these few days thurs still got geog test and nxt wk tues got hcl and nxt wk thurs got maths test...wad the....so fed up lor...then its like lotta hw....awww weird hor? no time do hw got time blog?!? welllllll...have to sae cause todae bit o slack so can type anyway i aso long time neva upload le lah...haiyo...ok fine...i sian liao gotta do hw...signing off...=D

2007-02-03T00:13:00.000-08:00

Haiz...today got tuition...=.= crap...i every saturday got tuition...like got difference likedat-.= but todae more lucki XD dun have maths and science... XD can SLACK!!! wa hoo! lame -.- oh welll... eh i dunno lor...am i stressed? got ppl sae i got white hair lehx! OMG!!! no white hair! imagine mi being a white haired person by e age of 20?!? nonono..i dun want...ah welll...that neva happens=.- sigh...nxt week thursday got maths test leh! and i this week got geog test...AHH! like so dead lorhs...dunno wad e teacher saying...if realli pop a science test out ah i first one fail sia...confirm de...
oh welll....seriously speaking...i by june then nid carry ppl le... can u imagine mi carrying a person who weighs 80kg?!? aiyo...of course nt possible la...i realli happen ah i rather i juz drop dead on e spot suan le...=.=
whoots got new sec 1's come in le...i think they lst wk juz learned bit o first aid and drill...cause that time after cca ics were like...go home revise ur first aid and drill ah... haha...lst time i aso likedat derhs...OMG! if i become sec 3 then die le lah...haiz...i sec 2 alreadi half dead liao lor...
seriously speaking ah...oh nvm i forgot wad i was gonna type...-.- oh welll.....this wk triage was like...erm...hw to sae...so funi sia...lol...to think still can chat during triage...think they cut case in e middle...oh welll...still got redo triage sia...haiz...so worried lor...after june camp is our turn lehx...how?!? haiz...best dun think too much lah...chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi...ok fine...signing off...

2007-02-01T02:47:00.000-08:00

Haiz...feeling so guilty lorz....today after sch... i was like feeling bit o weird cause i rmbered the CNY board nid redo...and its due at 18th feb! oh welll...in chinese, there's an old saying called emperor not urgent the eunuch urgent...sometimes i aso likedat i guess....so pai seh lorhz...cause i stun tio that today neva do notice board mahx...so i go ask welfare whether today got do...maybe i bit o too rush liao...duno wad i saying...so mayb said e word "slack" then wellll...it drives ppl haywire i guess...I'm like so sorry after i said it practically cause i juz made smone veri angry... and she appears veri stressed and sad...then i like so guilty likedat lorhz....oh shyt~! oh wellll...CCA makes everyone veri busi...supposedly she aso veri busy...then she wellfare smmore...so she maybe aso veri stressed...apparently i didnt guess it lor...hiaz...i so shi bai...so sad sia...and so sry...lets hope she b happi forevea...2k will win the CNY notice board de! confirm one! =.= oh fine...2k rox...

2007-01-28T01:31:00.001-08:00

hies...sec 2 life super stressful sia...but i slacking la....lol i suppose not only i slack...even the most hardworking person slack smtimes...XD...Whootz...2K class cleaniless loose to 2J!!!*pissed* by 1 point*pisser* so pissed off... lol... that day on wednesday...stayed back and clean windows...with window cleaning detergent...haha...its was like sooooooooooooooooo clean sia... oh fine... not realli clean la...got bits of dus here and there and there and there and there...-.= the floor aso quite clean la...lol onli got litter here and there and there and there and there...= .- oh fine....the projector place wrong place aso count? luki neva la...got count all classes si liao...=.=.... oh fine...signing off... 2k rox

2007-01-28T01:31:00.000-08:00

hies...sec 2 life super stressful sia...but i slacking la....lol i suppose not only i slack...even the most hardworking person slack smtimes...XD...Whootz...2K class cleaniless loose to 2J!!!*pissed* by i point*pisser* so pissed off... lol... that day on wednesday...stayed back and clean windows...with window cleaning detergent...haha...its was like sooooooooooooooooo clean sia... oh fine... not realli clean la...got bits of dus here and there and there and there and there...-.= the floor aso quite clean la...lol onli got litter here and there and there and there and there...= .- oh fine....the projector place wrong place aso count? luki neva la...got count all classes si liao...=.=.... oh fine...signing off... 2k rox

2007-01-22T22:06:00.000-08:00

Oh Shyt! I sick le-.= down with feve...of all e time i fall sick i choose a date where i nid go sch....Wad the....wa i gonna die liao...hmwk confirm a lot dex...oops...and i havent do my compo yetz...halfway through finishing...fever so sian lor...and i feeling so cold-.=oh well..go do hw le...-.= bb

2007-01-16T04:13:00.000-08:00

Haha...finally a dream come true....lol i havent touch first aid for 2 months :p but not bad la
still can remember basics.Lol...though got make quite a number of errors....so sad...heex now still can slack no lotta hw yet...when hw season come then AHHHRGHH!!!heex weelllll signing off-.= bb

2007-01-06T04:02:00.000-08:00

oh!!!this yr sec 2 le...haha i didnt noe i was senior liao wellll sec 1 was a breeze but sec 2 lotta stress...sigh...haha...i go into 2K!!!xD hahahaha... 2K the teachers all v gd sia...hahaha teachers rox! oh well...haha hmmz....st john gettin nicer by e dae....=D i cant belive this!!=D i'm touched:'(whahaha anyways signing off=D 2k rox!

2006-12-06T05:43:00.000-08:00

hello...long time o blog liao....haha i in china this day cool right???so nice got lotta amazing places and a coupla o bugs...ewww...anyway i seem to have grown fatter...oh well load of crap..is of course not seem hahaha...main reason cause i eat and sleep too much liao...sigh...wonder wad happened in spore...got any new stuff or not also dunno...sianz... tell me bout it manz...here's damn cold...how i survived i never noe...ai...i goin rest soon...wun tok more here...bb

2006-07-19T04:33:00.000-07:00

sigh...can't stand the stuff going on in class like i wanna be bad gfuy like that lor...can't stand it...oh...wad can i do?WORKED UP ABT GREAT STUFF???surely de... well since they like to have rough treatment i give em wad they want...they may hate me though...but i don't have a choice...they had it coming...like i want to like that...the teacher says nth, then i close one eyes...smtimes even close two eyes...budden...the teacher open two eyes leh...how can i close an eye? and i only got two eyes...two eyes not enough sia...got 5 boyz leh...no choice lor... perhaps the warning system will do em good...its not like it want it though...sad life...at least pumping seems slightly untough to me now...awww....speaking of pumping...

2006-07-05T05:13:00.000-07:00

sigh...XT quitting her post as monitor...and nid smone to continue her place...wonder who will be able to take on the challenge?Me?definitely NOT...welll...at least she nids a perfect student to take on the challenge...not like me...a slacker...well...a lot of choices...but the prob will be whether they will take on it...XT said she will continue her post if i take on ACL...like got so much truth lor...perhaps friends have a special linkway between the feelings...when one feels sad...u can feel it...perhaps her acting skills not that great...dunno why leh...i could sense sadness in her tone when she asked the question...though her expression was happy...well...she can kid me...she was sad...that was my impression...well...wadever i do...must try muh best to keep her position....if she sets her mind...then i cant help it too...

2006-05-16T01:23:00.000-07:00

i can't believe this...I suck...i hate myself...i couldn't even do well in exams... i am so useless...maths results was so damn lousy...so was chinese...i left too high expectations of myself...no use broading over spilled milk...but can't help crying over it...honestly...i hate myself...wished there was a retest...i can't believe all this can happen...how would i face other people with this kind of shit result...to think i want to be a councillor...when i can't even take a setback? to think my ambition was to be a teacher...when i don't set a good example at all?what am i heading at? so all i have wished for was a pile of insensitive stuff that never can be fulfilled...so useless...

2006-04-21T20:46:00.000-07:00

whoot...exams are coming...whoot...my cca stop for a week or two...whoot...sigh...gotta work ard for my exams...HELP!!! distress signal...I rather slack anyway...But i can't slack anymore if I wanna be an S.C...hmmm that may be ggod to let me try being hardworking for a while...hahahahahahahahaha...

2006-04-13T05:51:00.000-07:00

so touched by the comments in muh tagboard...sigh...maybe i over exxagerated a little...sigh...hope that i wun look so glum nxt time...I still practising a lot for sjab...hmmm...I hope to become able to save lives soon...cause I still really a junior...unbelievable...sigh...I have been really hot-tempered really...must try to control my temper, else I really gonna flare up one day...lol...imagine that...sjab rawks anyway...=P

2006-04-08T05:13:00.000-07:00

i really dont get it...sjab finally revealed their true colours...so fierce...oooh....so scared...pumping is so tough...unbearable...but i cant leave...i dunno why...but i feel...as if...as if...i am stuck to it...but i still finding i very weak,..so sad...why? haiz... who would vote for a weakling to be student counsellor... who would understand me inside out? it's as if i have no one to tell my feelings to...as if no one i can confide in...life ain't wonderful anymore... its as i plunged into a world of darkness...everything is over...dreams shattered...but i would rather fulfill one's wish than i myself be happy...i want the world to be happy...i want to end all suffering and pain...i want to see the poor leading normal lives...but i cant do it...i wish eerybody to be happy...yet i am unable to practise what i preach...i am such a failure...dont know what i was born to be...i feel as if i am useless...though i can tell other people that everybody is unique...oh...why just cant i do what i want?

2006-04-07T07:10:00.000-07:00

cant stand it anymore...how could i end up like this...i wanted to be sc...but yet...i dun want it to take up too much of my time...why would i want to be a sc in the first place...why not i give up the wish...anyway my greatest wish isnt to be an sc anyway...sc would only take up my time...why would i want to join it?why?all i join the student counsellor is cause i want to join in the orientation camp...what a reason... i wouldnt get my wish nxt year or the year after anyway...so why would i wanna be a student counsellor...my grades arent good...only average...and teachers wont recomend me anyway...and i cant quit after i join...why?why would i want to be an sc?
i really dun get the reason why...me, a weakling want to be a student counsillor? hah! fat hope...

2006-03-04T20:16:00.000-08:00

always memorial in my life...just writing this entry to thank those who gave help to the needy...memorial always...hope people out there always have a kind heart...always also hoping for you all to know that money is hard-earned...in other words, it doesnt drop from the sky...so please cherish what you all have...else when we are all older, we will experience what money is all about and its importance to live...

2006-02-27T04:12:00.000-08:00

your friend is like garfield'd food(his life) treasure it, or say bye to it...you only have two choices, give up your frienship or accept it and make it ever lasting....

friends dun always last long...a weak frienship only takes a small error to break it all up...however, just when you find out that you was in the wrong, a force would refrain you from owning up...just like me...a small broken friendship...but it doesnt matter...she made it up with me...but my trust for her stand of a sick joke had failed my perceptions for her...the friendship would never be the same again...

2006-02-25T05:01:00.000-08:00

2006-02-25T04:47:00.000-08:00

well, i came back from school again by mrt a few days ago and i saw the disabled lady again.she wad selling tissue packets and i also simply bought from her. however, this time, a lady also bought from her after what i did.well...i assumed the message spreads,lol...anyway, keep up the work...haha=D

2006-02-25T04:32:00.000-08:00

just to tell you, this picture shows three animals helping each other, just like us, helping the needy.help them, in whatever u can do for them...
a few weeks ago, while i was walking home from the paya lebar MRT station, i came across this disabled lady selling tissue packets. i mmediately, i went forward and bought 5 tissue packets from her. it cost about 1$.the problem is, i noticed that few people were buying from her. i mean, what's the prob by spending 1$ on poor disabled people who cannot work well.even though the lady was disabled, she still tried to do somethingf meaningful, which practically shows her will for survival and not a freeloader.i am writing this because i wish to seek help mfor her, to help all needy people in the world, to help them in their daily needs .please,this is just an act of kindness, not an act of misdeed.the people are innocent.please, help them...

2006-02-25T04:06:00.000-08:00

wondering what these three pictures mean???it stand for us being one for all, all for one=P

well...i finally entered st johnz...training is always tough of course but its always a pleasure to help someone and to save their lives.will always remember the motto of sjab, that is to preserve lives...

2006-02-25T04:00:00.000-08:00

hello,its my second time in blogging,well,i hope that you will like it as much as i do...i may be visiting the blog very often,updating on it and so on...please tag when u visit it...remember that my wish is to become a teacher who brings their students to see the light and to twinkle like a star, guilding them through all troubles and things, helping them to achieve good grades for them to remember me for all i have done for them.i will be their star, bring them hope and light, when i grow up...happy reading=D